My Own Worst Enemy.

I got called "the most immature person I(the person who said it) know" the other day. Why you ask? Because I said what I felt. Haha. Honestly, I don't know what's gotten into people. I'm sick of this drama rama! Sad part is, I lost a friend out of all this. I mean, it was slowly happening but, seriously? It's the stupidest thing ever. I'm really starting to see everyone's true colours. I'm also realizing who I can rely on. I know my jealousy gets the best of me sometimes, but I just feel neglected, ya know? Oh no, there goes my selfishness...

Can I please just leave Memphis?
When the heck is Jesus coming back?!
AGGGHH!
I'm sick of this life. I need a break.
That would be great right about now, thanks.

Another Bag of Bones.

I love fall. It's my favourite season. I also hate it because it always depresses me. October two years ago was the happiest time in my life. I just miss it a whole lot. I've tried to make the best of it, though. It's rough. I'm ready to move on but my heart won't let me. :(

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing.

Lately I've noticed a very odd thing: a ton of girls I know are pregnant or were pregnant recently. Not only that, but only one out of six had a girl... all the rest are boys. Some of the girls are 17 years old. It really scares me that people are taking these risks at such a young age. This may be a bit harsh but really, they're messing their lives up. I have to give it to them, though. Being brave enough to keep the child and taking responsibilty. In one of the cases, though, the mother was no smart at all. I'm not going to share the story, but it's really devestating. I just wanted to point out the huge baby boom going on right now... specifically with younger girls. I hope the best for all of them.

Desperate Times, Desperate Measures.

I cannot wait to be in college.

Stellar.

I leave tomorrow for lovely Waco. This week is flying by way too fast. I've had some good memories, though. I just wish I could get my heart out of it but it looks like that's not going to happen.





Meet me in outerspace
We could spend the night, watch the earth come up
I've grown tired of that place, wont you come with me
We could start again
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
Meet me in outerspace I will hold you close,
If your afraid of heights I need you to see this place,
It might be the only way
That I can show you how,
it feels to be inside of you
How do you it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
Do oh oh oh oh oh
You are stellar
You are stellar
How do you it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, make me feel like I do, Yeah.

I Bet That You Look Good...

on the dancefloor.


Fall Break is pretty much like... Heaven... except not really. I'm actually really excited about seeing my sister; I'm surprising myself. I'm going to go to her Mass Communications class! I'm reeeally stoked about that, too.

AND! When I come back, I get to see beautiful Dema! I'm excited!
Fall Break is going to be a great success. (lol @ Borat reference)


Today was our first bowling game and I played 2 out of 3 and won both of them! I'm actually getting a whole lot better! I've never been on a "team" sport so it's really exciting.


I'm starting to collect old cameras. So far I have a Kodak Pony II, a Polaroid Cool Cam, and a Brownie Reflex.



Michael Do is lame.

That's about it for the pointless update.

Megalomaniac.

I lost. Four votes, and I lost. It's not even the fact that I lost; I don't really care about the position anymore... it's the fact that I didn't have the support from some of my best friends. Maybe I'm being completely selfish, but I'm just really disappointed in one person in particular. But, it's over now and I can't do anything about it but get over it.

(This is NOT to make you feel guilty, Michael. Please don't take this the wrong way.)
To add on to that great news, I get a phone call. It's Michael. He dropped my lens that I let him borrow. I just kind of broke down from there. I was shocked. Too much was happening at the same time. If it were anybody I'd still be completely shocked, so it's not just that it was Michael. It was kind of like already having the impact of one fatal crash and then having another crash right after. The first crash was sort of someone else's fault and it could have been completely avoided, but the second was just an accident. But I just couldn't handle it. My stress level has been crazy lately.

Today just kind of made me realize no one can rely on each other. We do, then we're disappointed. That's why we forgive and forget, though. :)

I read over my post and it doesn't really make that much sense to me; everything just kind of flowed out and that's why everything is all jumbled and what not. AND I was trying reeeeally hard to quit ranting for a while, but I just really had to get that out. Thanks for reading and caring.

Amazing, Because It Is.

It's days like today where this guy is the only person who can give me hope.

Please watch that video. That song still gives me goosebumps.

Never Miss A Beat.

Mr. Taylor really got me thinking in Chapel today. I am so completely selfish. I complain too much, I think about myself over most everything, it's all about me. He just really opened my eyes and now it makes me sick knowing how selfish I really am.

I need to start putting God and other people before myself. This summer was so great, but what made it so great was getting the opportunity to serve other people. I love Honduras and I can't wait to go back there. The people there were so thankful for the smallest things. They love their lives even if they don't have any money to buy food. It amazes me. This whole world amazes me.

Stay Away.

I love Midtown. There's just a feeling I get walking down the street-- comfort, I'm sure. I can walk down the street and no one judges me. I can walk into a coffee shop and start an easy conversation with a random person. Is that weird? I just feel like I belong there. I also feel that way about New York, but that's for later.

The Cooper Young Festival was ravishing. So many interesting people, so much to see. I did see many people I know, some I haven't seen in a long time.. years actually. I bought The Beatles' Hey Jude record for eight bucks and I don't even have a record player (yet). I just couldn't resist. I also bought a beautiful incense burner. It's purple with stars on it and a moon/sun at the end. It's pretty neat.

Does anyone have any polaroid film they don't want?

Times Like These.

Today was such a blur. School was all right, not too bad. It kind of flew by.

The game was long and completely drawn out. I'm sad we lost. I did get to hang out with Rachel and Brandy which was good because I never get to see or talk to them.

Waffle House was better than I had anticipated.. I think. I'm not exactly certain yet. I don't know what I would do without Josh. He makes me laugh when I'm lower than low. He's the only person who can make me do that and he has no idea. Tonight was definitely full of emotions. We made some pretty good memories there thanks to Garrett. Despite the fact that I was pretty upset, I had fun. I think I'm just really confused and lost right now. I need some revival.

Tomorrow will hopefully be stellar. I'm meeting Corrie at Cooper Young Fest. That is one of two festivals that I live for. Literally.

Mixtape.

You know how I said things will probably get better? Well, they didn't today.





Today just wasn't my day. At all. Bowling practice was absolutely horrible. I bowled a 59(I know, right?) and then I bowled a 104. I was just so off today.

I'm pretty sure I failed a quiz.

I drove like a maniac home.

I'm bitter.

I'm really disappointed, quite frankly.

Could I be anymore negative?

Videotape.

I think I just died a little. A lot, actually.

Sorry about the emo-ness today, guys. It's not a good day at all and it just got worse.

But thank you, Dema, for opening my eyes. I needed that.

edit:
I have a feeling things will get better. Maybe not now, but someday.

Soco Amaretto Lime.

Do you think God purposely gives us happiness and then takes it away? Maybe that's bad phrasing... Do you believe there is a logical reason we are extremely happy one minute and the next we have basically nothing? ... I mean, I guess it's a test of faith... but there's only so much one person can take. Maybe I'm reading too much into this. All I know is that whoever said "it takes time" was lying. It's been two years, is that not enough?


Today wasn't that great at all.
And I wish I had some polaroid film for my new cool cam. :(

The Created Void.

Let’s do this for each other
Let’s do this for truth
I give for you, you give for me
Let me take you somewhere, I can not explain
I’m stumbling right in front of you now
I won’t refrain from guiding you there
Normal is not so farWas it just a dream
Or something much more
We are not alone
Since you agreed to follow
It’s all in my head, if you want, you can look inside
There’s nothing but red and all the mess I’ve been
It’s all in the way I say what I don’t mean, and mean what I don’t
I need to speak of you and what is real
They will never understand
What eats at our insides

High Hopes.

I honestly think I have the worst luck there is.

I start liking a boy (finally) and it never evolves into anything and I just get hurt in the end. I finally let my guard down and just get my heart stomped on. It sucks. I think I keep setting myself up for it, though.

Why can't life be simple?

I just want someone to accept me for me. I want a guy I can talk to about anything and everything. I want to gain his trust and give him mine back. I just want to have fun. Am I asking too much?

Ahh, I'm sorry I'm ranting. I can't help it.
I just want to smile and mean it. :)

Too Bright to See, Too Loud to Hear.

This weekend was very good. It was probably the best one I've had in a longgg time. Friday was the first home game against SBEC. It was a pretty good game and we won. Then we all went to Waffle House. It was verrry nice. Haha. I love those boys. We were out until at least 12, I think. Saturday was very eventful. Justin, Jeremy, Dema, Nadine, and I all went to Germantown Fest. It was pretty cool. Then we all went to Target and I bought Borat and Almost Famous, haha. Then Justin, Jeremy, and I went to Kaht's house for like 20 minutes and stuffed our faces with pizza and then we went to High Point for her show with Irene, Logan, and Corytaylorcox. It was pretty rad. We played scrabble, which Justin has never played, haha. I quit because it was so retarded. Then they played mad libs, chess, and connect four. Then after the show, we came to my house to watch Borat because Jeremy and Justin have never seen it! Mucho funno. So all in all, my weekend was amazing and I'm so glad it happened. So now all I have to do is hope and wish...

Missing...

Monday I went back to the doctor to get blood drawn. Mom gave me xanax so I was completely out of it. The lady spent 30 minutes trying to find a vein and finally went got the other doctor to try. He tried for like 15 minutes and couln't find one either. So, he decides to poke me just once hoping to hit a vein, and he didn't. Haha. Overall, I'm not completely over my whole needle phobia, but I'm getting there. Dema actually is the one who gave me the courage to even go. Thanks, Dema. :)

Mom and Alicia left today to move Alicia into her new apartment in Waco. It's super quiet now. I'm not sure when mom will be back. I'm extremely ready for the weekend, though.

Bandages.

A lot of thoughts have just been floating in my head and I need to get them out. They're most likely going to be very unorganized, sorry.

I need to be happy. I'm trying very hard, but failing miserably. He was the one thing that made the happiest I've ever been, but that's the past. Why can't I just smile and mean it? Why does true happiness come so seldomly? (for me atleast) Maybe I'm just blind. I know my life does not suck endlessly, but I wish some things were different, as does every other human being. I mean, I think I've accpeted the fact that I will never be completely over him, nor will I ever find someone who meant as much to me as he did. Am I stupid for asking the questions? I need closure; I never got it. It's like he just cut the chord and erased me from his life, and that was it. No explanation, nothing. That's not the way to end things. I feel useless and worthless now. Really, how do you expect me to be okay after that? I don't understand anything right now. Life is so full of unanswered questions and confusion. I hate it. I'm just asking for happiness. Pure happiness. That's it. Is that so much to ask for? :(

I feel a little better after getting that out.

Charmer.

I do not want to go to school. I'm not sure why I loathe it so much, but I do. Oh and, the doctor has to draw blood from me next week. I'm freaking out. I'm not sure how that will go down. I need some reassuring. =/

The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot.

New York City is very hot. Second day of the journalism conference and I'm pumped. I was really skeptical about it all because I had no idea what we would be doing or anything but now, I think I have hope. This trip is about me and improving my skills in this field and also learning new things. One of our guest speakers wasn't able to come today so one of the TL's filled in. His presentation was awesome. It was all about computers and web-browsing. I learned quite a few things from him. We have lunch in an hour and then we are breaking into our leadership groups and working on our project. The whole point of this program is to create and design a newspaper or a magazine. I'm really excited. I hope my group chooses to create a magazine; I really want to be the graphic designer. I'm really trying to focus on this and not really making friends and getting caught up in drama and what not.

Off the subject, my birthday is in four days. I'm so ready to be sixteen.

Angel Below.

Honduras was undescribable. We did so many things I can't even begin to tell you everything. It was beyond amazing and I am so glad I was given the opportunity to serve God and the people of Honduras. I hope we reached out and helped many people. It was definitely an experience of a lifetime and I really hope I'm able to go again next year.

I got to see Kaht today. She gave me my birthday presents which are wonderful, by the way. I'm sure everyone knows I missed underOATH again for the third time while I was in Honduras. Well, Kaht got my a shirt with EVERYONE'S autograph! AMAZING! I was so ecstatic. She also got me a keychain and a purse thing from Paris. And she got me Chad's autograph from Backseat Goodbye. :)

Now I have to go shopping for dumb dresses and stuff for New York. Kelsey is coming shopping with me! Yay! I leave at 6 am tomorrow. I'm really nervous. =/

Juneau.

I leave tonight at 11:30 for Honduras! It really hasn't hit me yet. Maybe it will after 11 hours of traveling-- flying and driving. Oh well, no one really reads my blogs anyway. Keep us in your thoughts and prayers please! If you have number, you can text me. :)

Lost!

So here I am, five dives and two days later... an official certified scuba diver. Who knew diving was such hard work? It really is NOT a lazy man's sport... at all. I am probably the most tired I have been in a while. I'm glad all of that is over with and now I can actually go places and have fun with this... forever. Haha.

I really want the new Coldplay cd. My birthday is coming up.

I leave for Honduras on Friday(techincally Saturday) at midnight.


I really did have a good blog post idea in my head a few days ago and it just vanished. I'm mad.

The Tide.

I went to The Spill Canvas/Ludo show last night at Infinity. It was pretty good. Ludo played really well and The Spill Canvas were amazing. They played "All Hail The Heartbreaker" acoustic and all the sudden I started bawling. . . really hard. I just couldn't hold myself back. That was all it took to trigger the emotions in the back of my head. That day was already pretty bad for me concerning that issue and that just concluded it. Luckily, Kelsey was there to hug me and try to get my mind off of it. I'm kind of glad I got all of it out, though.

Tonight was pretty interesting. I went to Red Lobster and the drive-in. The group that came in the movie was verrrryyy random. It was rather akward, actually. The Hulk was possibly the most boring movie I have ever seen. I barely watched it.


Now I'm watching In His Life: The Story of John Lennon on VH1 Classic. Of course you know I'm going to watch anything about John; he is my hero, of course. I don't really like the actors in this, though. They're not that great. Tomorrow we're heading up to Lebanon, TN to finish our scuba certification.

Nothin' But a Good Time.

Poison gets me in a good mood. It's way too early.

I've definitely forgot about blogging lately. I've been going to the lake every single weekend. This weekend we are doing our 5 open dives, though. I'm kind of scared. Amanda is getting to come which I'm excited about because I haven't seen her all summer. I know it takes two to stay in touch, but it kind of bothers me that we haven't talked all summer. Oh well.

I washed my car yesterday!! It took 3 hours. THREE. It's hard work for real. Then it goes and storms like crazy. I was very mad. Can't cry over spilled milk, though.

More swimming today. Hopefully Kelsey will wake up soon and come over.

I think I'm going to go fix some waffles. Sorry for my lack of blogging. I'm not good at this.

Scissors.

Friday, May 30: The benefit show went pretty well. More and more people started showing up, yet I was still disappointed with some of my so-called friends. Most of them said they would come and support me, but only a few actually did. One person disappointed me the most. She came, but she said two words to me. It seemed as if she were caught up with the people around her rather than me. I guess I just ask for too much. Only half of the mission team actually showed up; and those who did barely did anything at all. That's what bothered me the most. I think I'm just in a vert complain-y mood. Anyway, we raised $507.63 plus the t-shirt money. Thank you to everyone who came. It really means a lot to me and we all appreciate it. Afterwards, Hannah's boyfriend, Taylor, and his friend Hunter(who is so cute, by the way) came and picked us up and took us to Huey's. I had a great time. Then we came back to my house and they played guitar and we just chilled for a while; I love nights like that. They didn't get home until 2:30. Haha.

Saturday, May 31: Rachel and I went to Italian Fest. I bought a cute new dress and a pretty bracelet. She did, also. It was funnnn. Blair and his friend Garrett came for a bit. We got bored and walked to Memphis Pizza Cafe. That was interesting. We saw Jim and Dylan in a booth, so we went and sat down beside them. That was funny because I had just seen Kristy and Stacey before and they said the boys had ditched them and there they are explainging it to me again. Haha. It was kind of akward for me, but it was cool. That pizza was sooo good! Haha. So then we came home and swam with my sister and her boyfriend. We put in Garden State and I immediately fell asleep and Rachel didn't! Haha. That was weird.

Sunday, June 01: We slept for a good while. Then Blair came and got Rachel. People started coming over for the cookout. That was fun. I swam a whole lot and it was good seeing the boys and what not. I fell alseep at 9:30 last night!

I didn't do anything at all today. I swam a little bit before scuba, but other than that I did nothing. Kelsey is supposed to come over tomorrow. I wonder how that will go. I still don't feel like I'm her "best friend." Who came up with the term "best friend" anyways?

I miss some people now that school is out. That was the only thing waking me up everyday for school; being able to see him and smile was amazing. Now life is just dull. =/

Capital G.

The benefit show was a much bigger success than I would have ever thought. We raised $507.63, plus the t-shirt sale money. Maybe I can elaborate more later.


Italian fest was pretty good!


I have to go make rotel dip now. Pool party! :)

Ain't Too Proud To Beg.

Today I realized I really need to get healthy.


Also; who would have known your jaw gets exercise from scuba?


This is such a pointless blog entry. Did I mention school's out? .. (for summa) as Alice Cooper would say. I'm officially a junior. It seems I should be older, but I'm not.



Hopefully bowling will be fun tomorrow. Cross your fingers.

No Transitory.

I love thunderstorms.

I hate being sick. It completely ruined my weekend. I got to go out on the boat once, but then I got sick again. YAY! I feel like death. Literally.

Tomorrow is going to be terrible. Kill me please.

The World I Know.

I kind of realized something today: I think I really like him. It's just really weird; it's been like this for a year now. I don't really know what to do. This whole situation is just.. really complex. Well, to me at least. I think too many people are catching on... I hope he hasn't.


No matter what happens though, I will always have that one person in my heart. I just wish I could have an eraser, ya know? It would make life so much easier. Then again, who said life would be easy? I just want to be over long lost feelings. It was a year ago next Friday. A year. It's the past, but I'm still not over him. People are completely wrong; it does not take time.


When will the madness ever stop?

Faust Arp.

Don't you hate those days where you express every emotion you could ever imagine? Today has been beyond one of those days. I hate mixed emotions. I did swim to release some of the negative feelings I have right now. I think it helped; I hope it helped.


I have worked my butt off to get this benefit show together to raise money for our mission trip to Honduras. It's kind of annoying how no one did anything before our small group leader complained about it-- but now that they're actually attempting to help, they completely ruin everything. I seriously and honestly do NOT want all of the credit, I am only doing God's will, but I can't help but pointing out that me and one or two other people are doing EVERYTHING. Their doing nothing is only reflecting what will happen on the trip. They're not taking this seriously at all and it really bothers me. And also, don't get me wrong here, but the show was MY idea. I got all the bands together; I've been working on this whole thing for about 4 weeks now. You do not need to jump in because I asked you to do one or two things and take credit for EVERYTHING. Please don't take this rant the wrong way. I am not trying to be selfish whatsoever, so I am sorry if I'm coming off that way.

It also bothers me because it feels like no one will come to the show. We need a lot of money. Every house we build costs about $1,000, so depending on how much money we raise, is how many houses we will build. Maybe I'm just paranoid. I don't know. I think I just need to have faith and hope, but I also need reassurance.



Summer 2008:
May 22-May 26 = Heber Springs, Arkansas for Memorial Day!
May 27-May 28 = 3 exams then it's over!
May 29-May 31 = Italian Festival.
May 30 = Honduras Benefit Show @ Higher Ground.
June 28-July 09 = Honduras Mission Trip.
July 12-July 21 = LeadAmerica Journalism Conference in NYC.
July 17 = Sweet Sixteen.
July 21-July 23 = Sister time in NYC; going to see RENT on Broadway before it closes!
July 28?-August 2? = Bahamas for our 3 open water dives.

My summer is jam-packed. I'm very excited. :)
(One full day of school left. Hooray!)

Sick, Sick, Sick.

Question: Is there anyway to subscribe to people's blogs?



I'm thinking about going swimming. I'm not really sure yet, though.
There's nothing to do, really. Hmm...

Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape.

July 4. A day I will sadly miss. Yet again, my (second) favourite band decides to pop into Memphis the day I will be gone. I love it. Not really. Seriously, tears came into my eyes when I read it. I know, right-- how pathetic. I don't care. They're half of my life. It's pretty sad but yet, so true. I will miss them greatly. Someone please go and soak up the righteousness and send me some in a bottle. Why does this always happen? I mean really.

On the otherhand, only three more days of school. Bleh.

All Around Me.

I've been working really hard on this benefit show for my Honduras Mission Trip. Not to point out anyone, but I have definitely been working harder than others. I'm not really sure how all this will finally turn out. Hopefully it will be all right.

I was listening to Flyleaf on repeat Thursday and the song 'Cassie' came on. Josh had told me before that Lacey had written it about the Columbine shooting--but mostly about Cassie Bernall and Rachel Scott dying for what they believed in. For some reason, the lyrics just really spoke to me that day and so I decided to look up videos and information about the shooting because I've never really known too much about it. The things I saw were beyond disturbing. They just kind of ate me alive. It made me think a lot. If I were asked if I believed in God or not in a life or death situation, would I say yes? Or am I really that selfish to say no just not save my own life? They were beyond selfless and it makes me so angry and upset knowing that those two boys killed innocent people for who they were. I know there have been multiple instances like this in history, but for some reason, this all just really got to me. It really opened up my eyes. Life is just really confusing. I believe there are too many questions left unanswered to understand mostly anything. I just hope I can work at becoming like Cassie and Rachel--gain the selflessness they had. I will remember them forever.

I think I've been over-analyzing things too much lately. Then again, that's just who I am.


'Cassie' by Flyleaf.
The question asked in order
To save her life or take it
The answer no to avoid death
The answer yes would make it
Make it
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
And Cassie pulled the trigger
All heads are bowed in silence
To remember her last sentence
She answered him knowing what would happen
Her last words still hanging in the airIn the air
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
And Rachel pulled the trigger
How many will die I will die I, I will say yes
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
Do you believe in God
Written on the bullet
And Cassie pulled the trigger(Do you believe)
Do you believe in God (Do you believe)
Do you believe in God (Do you believe)
Do you believe in God
And I will pull the trigger

Love Me Dead.

My dad and I went to the Dive Shop and bought all of our diving gear today. Ick, I hate wet suits; they feel horrible. Our lessons will be in June before I leave for Honduras. It will be really easy since I've already dove three times; it's just to get our official certification. I'm rather excited. I can dive in my own pool! Hahaha.

My sister comes home Wednesday. It's going to suck beyond belief. Not that I dislike her (that much), but I like being the only child. It's much more laid back and I get a whole lot more alone time with her gone. This summer is going to be weird, but I'll be gone a lot so that will help.

I also bought two new books and Tegan & Sara's CD today. I seriously have a whole stack of books I've bought and not had any time to read. That's what bothers me so much about school. They give us these lame classic books that are way past our time to even understand. The thing with required reading, for me at least, is that even though I literally sit there and read the whole book and still make terrible grades on the tests. I think it's because I'm being forced to read something I have no interest in whatsoever. I also think it's because most of the authors they choose are not that great of writers. Honestly, I'd rather read Beverly Cleary books than Charles Dickens. I love reading, just not that books they give us. Anyways, back to the CD-- it's so much more than amazing. It's very different and the lyrics are beautiful.

Did I mention tomorrow is yearbook assembly?!! One of the best days of the whole entire year. I love this day.

Bleh, I'm really procrastinating. I need to do the loads of homework I have, that I never ever do.

Never Let This Go.

Maybe if my heart stops beating,
It won't hurt this much,
And never will I have to answer again to anyone.
Please don't get me wrong,
Because I'll never let this go,
But I can't find the words to tell you,
I don't want to be alone.
But now I feel like I don't know you.
One day you'll get sick of saying that everything's alright,
And by then I'm sure I'll be pretending,
Just like I am tonight.
Please don't get me wrong,
Because I'll never let this go,
But I can't find the words to tell you,
I don't want to be alone.
But now I feel like I don't know you,
Let this go, let this go,
But I'll never let this go.
But I can't find the words to tell you,
I don't want to be alone,
But now I feel like I don't know you.
And I'll never let this go.
But I can't find the words to tell you,
That now I feel like I don't know you.



That's basically how I feel right now. I love when lyrics capture my mood. I wish I had a time machine. Then again, that would probably make matters worse. I'm so unsure of everything.

Music Fest.

This weekend has been so crazy! Friday night was the first night of music fest. It rained really hard but it added more fun. I saw Flyleaf, which was absolutely amazing, Hellogoodbye, which kind of made me sad (only one person knows why), and we left before My Chemical Romance because everyone was getting delayed and it was time to go anyways. I missed Ben Folds which kind of sucks. :( Oh well, it was fun anwyays because of the people I was with.

Saturday we saw Tegan and Sara, they were great. We left after them and went to Beale and the Peabody and ate at Blues City Cafe, one of my favourite places. We people watched for a while. Then came back and met up with Josh, Justin, Jeremy, Ashley, Dema, Alyssa and her boyfriend, and Brooke. Seether was almost over, they were AWESOME, and then we pushed our way up to the front as much as possible for Disturbed. Justin was right, they do put on a great show. Haha. Then we all piled into Justin and Josh's mom's car and we dropped Dema, Alyssa and her boyfriend off at school and then Hannah, me, Justin, Josh, their little brother Dylan, and their mom went to Waffle House! Best night ever, seriously. We didn't get home until 3:15. It was ah-mazing. Haha.

Sunday we went to the zoo for a few hours cause Hannah's stepdad's family were in town and they all hung out and me and Hannah did our own thing. That was fun but it made me really tired. Then we went to music fest for the last day. We came during Umphrey's McGee, which is now Justin's favourite band. Hahhaaa. We walked around and chilled for a while until Finger Eleven. They were kind of boring until they played Paralyzer and everyone freaked out. People literally started throwing every single drink they had and it was hitting people, it was actually really funny cause the police freaked out. Then they kind of played like 4 different sings during Paralyzer and then finished the last verse which was pretty cool. Then I pratically sprinted all the way to the Budweiser stage to see THE BLACK CROWES, whom I was waiting to see all freaking weekend! I got really into it and it was great until they played Remedy, which is a great song, and then Chris said goodnight and thank you. Every single person just stood there because we seriously thought they were going to come back out and sing She Talks To Angels....but they didn't. I was so upset.

Not to mention a lot of other things I realized this weekend. It was all really weird, too. I'm not going to even go there. I'll just say it kind of hit me in the face. It hurt.

Soul Kitchen.

It's been a while since I've had an online blog. It feels nice to be able to write again.

These two weeks have literally been so up and down it's scary. My parent's don't come back until Sunday. I must admit, it really sucks not having them around. I don't think I've ever felt so alone in my life. Haha. This weekend will be amazing, though. I'm staying at Hannah's and we're going to Music Fest because it's our tradition. Honestly, the line up is not spectacular this year but, it's about going and having a good time. I cannot wait. I'm still debating whether or not I should take my camera. It will be such a hassel but then again, I could get some once in a lifetime pictures. I just have no idea. Last year was sort of really chaotic. I'm so back and forth. Ergh.

I'm so glad tomorrow is Friday. This week has been the longest ever. I need a huge break.
I still have yet to start on my English project. I'm doomed.